The past few months have been a rollercoaster of high and low emotions, struggling to get through my final semester of college, and the realization that real adult-ing was coming my way. I guess it all began in January of this year when I had to figure out what to write my personal statement on for Graduate school applications. I genuinely struggled so hard with finding the “why” in why I wanted to pursue a Masters Degree in Speech and Language Pathology. After gathering all of my letters of recommendations from Professors who cared so deeply for me and having moral support from other classmates, I decided that the pressure of applying was being built up to a point that I could not handle any further so I decided to halt my applications.
It took me quite some time to think of what to actually write in this post but here on a rainy, gloomy June day, I have decided to muster up the courage and give you all a (little) life update.
I told everyone that I was going to be taking a break, that I would possibly be going back for a Master’s degree later on in the future, whether it be in Speech, or Special Education, or something else. And who knows, one day I may just go back to school, but for right now that is not in the picture for me.
If you did not know, I began my college career in Fashion Merchandising. I transferred home after a semester of being away because I am extremely close to my family. I just wanted to come home and do something that made my parents proud so I decided to pursue a career in Speech and Language Pathology, one that was familiar to my family.
I am a person that strives to please. I do and try everything to make others happy, so this was nothing out of the ordinary.
I still do not know what the future lies ahead of me, and that is okay. I have applied to multiple jobs that are potentially my dream jobs and have not heard back from them and again, that is okay because I know that the reason why I have not heard back is because the right job is out there waiting for me.
I had a lovely (and rainy) graduation day celebrating me barely passing one class and yet still graduating with Cum Laude honors. I was okay with not knowing what the future lied ahead of me.
Fast foward to now, beginning of June, one month into being a graduated college student and I am sitting on my butt at home writing this blog post.
I would like you all to know, whether your a freshman about to start college, or a senior who has just graduated that we should not have to decide what we want to do for the rest of our lives at 17/18 years old. A majority of the most successful people I know have had career changes at 40 and 50 years old because they began their early careers and were never happy.
My mom always did and still tells me up until this day:
“You have to do something that makes you want to wake up with a smile on your face every morning and if you are doing something that makes you miserable, you will never find happiness in life.”
So to all you recent grads who are in my place or whatever place you are at in your life, do whatever makes you happy and never look back.